Nope, I was not pregnant . . . but I perhaps I could have been. My period just came a little later. It could have been super early loss. I don't know. I don't know if I wanted to really know, either. Part of me was very relieved that I wasn't pregnant. (Yet.) Of course, another part of me was really disappointed.
At present, I think I am ovulating now (or did within the last day or two.) And so the wait begins again. Except for while writing this, I am going to try not to think about it at all. If it happens, great, and if not, there is always next month.
I kind of want to get another (and probably final) pregnancy over with, too, because I would like to back on my SSRI of choice. I am convinced that it does help calm my anxiety down, and a calmer mother would be good for our living son and also hopefully future baby.
It is now time for bed. The last two nights have been trying as my living son has been up with fevers (that end promptly at 8 am), and unable to sleep well. He is sleeping now, so I must get some sleep while I can.
Monday, July 23, 2012
Friday, July 6, 2012
Waiting
I am waiting.
Either this is the longest PMS that I have had in a long time (remember, my cycle has been very regular and predictable for almost the last year straight!) or I am pregnant. I kind of hope that I am pregnant.
On the other hand, this is the first cycle we vaguely tried without really trying. We did the deed perhaps too early before ovulation. I am quite sure of when I ovulated because I felt it. We did the deed nearly five days before.
I also know that it would not be impossible, either.
I am nervous that if I am pregnant, then this pregnancy will end badly. My first two pregnancies that were on the first tries did. However, this baby would have been conceived in Arizona, and the one other pregnancy that was Arizona conceived turned out very well (even though he is in a very whiny and mischievious time of life right now . . . he is honestly very trying right now.)
I have been nauseous and for three days straight. No period yet.
Either this is the longest PMS that I have had in a long time (remember, my cycle has been very regular and predictable for almost the last year straight!) or I am pregnant. I kind of hope that I am pregnant.
On the other hand, this is the first cycle we vaguely tried without really trying. We did the deed perhaps too early before ovulation. I am quite sure of when I ovulated because I felt it. We did the deed nearly five days before.
I also know that it would not be impossible, either.
I am nervous that if I am pregnant, then this pregnancy will end badly. My first two pregnancies that were on the first tries did. However, this baby would have been conceived in Arizona, and the one other pregnancy that was Arizona conceived turned out very well (even though he is in a very whiny and mischievious time of life right now . . . he is honestly very trying right now.)
I have been nauseous and for three days straight. No period yet.
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